Testimony

I have had a pretty good life.

My name is Sarah Lawson, and I was born to parents who were new Christians.  My faith has always been a part of my life.  I love my family and my brother dearly, and I know that I have very little to complain about.  I have never experience any traumatic incidents, unless you count the time I had E. Coli when I was four.  In spite of all this, I still have a testimony.  Every single person saved by God's grace, no matter how long they have known that grace, has a testimony.

When I look at myself, I see a flawed person.  I see a girl who struggles constantly with her body image in the face of a world whose definition of beauty is ridiculously narrow.  I see a girl who has trouble forgiving people who have hurt her or hurt those close to her.  I see a girl who struggles with perfectionism and a girl who sometimes has an ego that is way too big for her. 

But I also see a girl who is washed white as snow.

None of the things I listed are part of my definition, because Christ saved me from those chains.  That doesn't mean I can't grow.  Last night I heard a preacher say, "They'll tell you that God loves you just the way you are.  I don't believe that.  I believe that God loves you too much to leave you how you are."  That is how I view myself.  I am something beautiful that God has designed and is continuing to mold on a daily basis.  I am trying to figure out the world through a God-colored lens, and this blog serves primarily as a place for me to post my writings as I am going through this process.

Things that might appear on this blog include: thoughts about being a young woman and what that means; my tentative foray into a God-centered feminism (still not sure how that's going to work out); messages that I've received from God throughout the day; praise to Him for His blessings; neat things that I have read or heard over the course of the week that made me think more deeply about God; and so on.  I hope that this blog is a blessing to those who read it, and we'll see where this goes from here.

To God Be the Glory,
Sarah